Friday, August 13, 2010

Little Boy / Big Boy


Never heard of this gay-themed Indie film until last night, and i guess my curiosity got a better hold me with the involvement of a little boy in the movie plot. I decided to watch it without any dire expectation and to my surprise without being overly effusive I was entertained. More so, the film made me think, which very few movies are able to do to me.

The movie plot is very simple and straight-forward, which most of the time is considered bad, but works perfectly for this film. It tells the story Emon, a very sexually active gay guy, and his struggle to balance his private life and his desire to maintain a serious exclusive relationship with his new lover Tim, amidst his task to look after his nephew Zack. More compelling about the film is that despite the simplicity of its depiction of the conflicts of interest between the two main characters, Emon and Tim, it manages to profoundly express the message that it is trying to convey. Acceptance, love, family, and self-respect.

There is just one thing though that I think tainted the main focus of the film, the orgy scene was delivered longer that it should have been, which for me deviates the attention of the viewers to the more compelling issues that the film touched. Like what really constitutes a family and exclusivity in a relationship. Nonetheless, I find the film refreshing compared to other gay-themed Indie films that portray nothing more than titillating scenes on sexuality.

More films like this in the future sana...

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Soliloquy 080410


time moves slowly...learn to deal with it.


So instead of fighting the whole world over your series of unfortunate events, learn to live within it and not out of it.


That way you'll learn to appreciate the goodness in everything no matter how difficult the situation is.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Shelter OST : "More Than This"


I feel in love with this film...
the story line is very simple, yet very endearing...
i find it really heartwarming.

the two main characters, Zach and Shaun, didn't feel like acting at all as the scenes were too natural.

More importantly, i like how the film depicted the fear and joy that almost every gay individual feel about discovering their sexuality for the first time. I felt it then...and maybe that's why i related to the film so much.

The fear towards family rejection, public humiliation and being the subject of ridicule is too great to be ignored.

Anywayzzzzzzzzzz! the film also has a great soundtrack. The video attached is one of them.

Monday, July 26, 2010

Soliloquy 072610 Part2


pain strengthens me...

and in my darkest hours it illuminates my way...

much as you want to, you will not break me...

i won't give you that satisfaction...

and i may shed a tear...

but it is with contemplation that what follows is a boisterous laugh,

that will deafen you.

Trust me...

you can't beat me!

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Soliloquy 072610

"A trust once broken, can never be restored to its original state."

Can no longer count how many times this line slapped me in the face...still i feel the pain. It seems that no matter what i do, regardless of the reasons, it always feels like i have to prove myself all time. I don't really blame them...ghosts from my actions past continue to haunt them, more so myself.

It's just that sometimes i wish they'd give me a little slack and allow me to do what i have been trying to for the past years, which is to earn back at least a small percentage of the trust they once bestowed on me. It's been an uphill climb and i have fallen many times and every time i do it pains me to realize that i see a pointing finger blazing with blame instead of a gentle hand to help me up back to my feet.

I don't know how much longer do i have to endure this...